discernment

I have come to what seems like a time of enormous change. I am very uncertain about these looming and immediate choices that we have to make. It's decision time, and the moves that we make in the next 48 hours or so will overwhelmingly impact and define our lives for at least the next seven years.
Maybe it's because I've never sat still for that long that it seems so scary to commit to sitting still. Maybe it's because things seem to be always in such a state of constant flux that my common sense tells me to "wait, wait...let things play out and see what happens".
We came here with next to nothing and entered into a life...entered into relationships...relationships with people, relationships with a potential church community, relationships with jobs, etc. Some of those relationships are great and blossoming. Some have wavered to the point where I don't know if it's something we can count on when the clinch tightens. Some relationships have almost completely fallen away.
My instinct is to push everything away, cut ties, and to run in a different direction. Running west always seems to make some sort of sense...that option is always hanging out in the periphery of my mind as if to say, "I know how you feel about me and I'll be here waiting here for you to choose me."
The word "discernment" never really meant much to me until now. But now, the concept of (and struggle for) discernment is presenting itself over and over.